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With my foot on your neck, I finally have you right where I want you...

2005-07-25T22:30:24Z

Summer ‘05 has been going pretty well. New York was A-M-A-ZING! Seriously, I had no idea how much I’d love the city. I met KIP from Napoleon Dynamite! It was pretty tight. Kenzie’s 2^nd birthday was very goodddd.

And....I GOT A PUPPY!!! Kenzie named her Lola and she's the greatest...

Meet Lo... She's pretty tight

I saw a movie, it just wasn't the same. It was happy and I was sad. It made me miss you oh so bad.

2005-07-01T03:34:29Z

This summer seems to be passing by so quickly and I think it’s beginning to scare me. One trip down and a few to go. So much has happened. Some things, I wish to forget. Others, I hope would never have ended. I think this summer will be focused on growth and change. New people and new places, only a few of the “new’s” in my life. I leave in a few days for New York. I think this will be a test for me. We’ll see if I pass or not. 9 days is an awfully long time. All that this basically translates to is: I’ll be needing a lot of phonecalls and text messages until the 12^th. I don’t even think I can imagine how homesick I’ll be. I’ll miss you all and I’ll miss California most of all. Longest time away from the coast EVER. I’ll be home soon, I promise.

::PeaceLove&EternalSunshine::

<3AlexandraElizabethSpaulding

p.s. JULY 2nd IS MY GIRLFRIEND'S BIRTHDAY. IloveLindsayLohan, Geezeee.

Come stand a little bit closer. Breathe in and get a bit higher. You'll never know what hit you.

2005-06-10T03:54:29Z

Today at 10:00 a.m., Summer '05 officially began...
Summer=what I need right now.
California, may I always be yours and you always mine. =]
I found my old Savage Garden CD and um, I'm in love...again
Season II of Laguna starts on July 25th and season I is on dvd in July. Who's excited?
::PeaceLove&EternalSunshine::
<3AlexandraElizabethSpaulding.

Today's my birthday and I get one every yearrr....

2005-06-07T00:11:08Z

Today, I'm sixteeeeeen.
....weird
Thanks for everything today, you guys. I appreciate it so much more than you all know.
I love you all SO much.
::Peace, Love & Eternal Sunshine::
<3AlexandraElizabethSpaulding.

Forever young, I want to be forever young...Do you really want to live forever?

2005-05-31T04:42:07Z

“I guess when you’ve just been shot and your husband’s dead you look for a friend in

whoever is there to hand you a Tylenol with codeine.”

(The Bean Trees)

One of the best quotes... It's so true... Countless times over, my friends have been the only things holding me together. This weekend, it stands so true. I spent 3 days with the best people. Friday, I had my reunion with Cam and Todd. We had a pretty good night. Saturday- bbq at Amanda&Seth's...Then, Todd, Alyssa, Sinjin and I went out. I'll admit it, it was pretty tight. Sunday & today were REALLY good. Yesterday, Chelsea Taylor and I had the ultimate reunion. Drew&Ryan got us and we went out...Some fun stuffff. Todd slept here. We woke up and went to breakfast and stuff. It made me so ready fro summer. I can't wait. It's ridiculous. With that in mind, MY BIRTHDAY IS IN ONE WEEK. Strange feelings. I don't know. 16's big...I mean, BIG. I guess I'm supposed to be excited, but I don't know. I don't wanna grow up. Whatever, it's been a good week and I hope it'll be a quick week... I love you all <3

::You know you love me::

<3 AlexandraElizabethSpaulding.

yes_its_alexxx @ 2005-05-15T22:02:00

2005-05-16T05:10:39Z

I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now…
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding…
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding…
There are many things that I would like to say to you,
but I don't know how
Because maybe…
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all, you're my wonderwall…

It’s funny, when I drove down PCH tonight, I cried… I really couldn’t understand what was wrong. Maybe I’m just emotionally drained. For the 1^st time in my life, even the place that makes me my happiest, made me cry. They weren’t sad tears…just tears

Kinda weird to think about all that’s gone on in life. I guess the more and more I think about it, I just realize how if it weren’t for a small handful of people, I really wouldn’t be okay… I didn’t know I could love any of you as much as I do. It’s almost comforting that through it all, I still love you all [not that I ever wouldn‘t]. Thanks for being the ones to save me.

Gosh... I love that kid

what a goober.

When things just don't feel the same anymore...

2005-05-08T06:51:23Z

I've come to realize that the things I used to have fun doing just aren't fun anymore. I've lost interest in almost everything. I find myself lacking in so many areas. I don't know if I'm sick. And what if I am?
Today, my parents asked me to go to dinner with them, I told them I couldn't. They left, reluctantly, and I found myself in tears ripping eveything off my walls. I decided I was gonna repaint my room. A few minutes later, I started talking to myself. But I really think I was talking to God or someone who was listening. I wonder if I'm doing this to erase the past or start a new future. I turned off my music and was walking through my house. It's a rare occasion that I find myself in complete silence. It was the strangest feeling. Once again, I foudn myself talking to someone. I asked why all this was happening. I don't understand life. I want my best friend to be okay. I want Todd's mom to get better. I want everything to go back to normal. It's just not normal. We're kids. We're not supposed to be like this.
...I just want to be okay
<3

yes_its_alexxx @ 2005-04-17T21:53:00

2005-04-18T05:01:21Z

Pressure!
Pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for
Under pressure
That burns a building down
Splits a family in two
Puts people on streets
That's okay!
It's the terror of knowing
What this world is about
Watching some good friends
Screaming "Let me out!"
Pray tomorrow takes me higher
Pressure on people
People on streets
Under Pressure...

I'm not so sure about you, but the daily pressures have gotten to me so badly that I have failed to recognize how wonderful life is... Just this week, in a nutshell, was overwhelming. I don't even really know why. It just really was too much. I guess this kind of just made it so real to me. ...Go&download that song from iTunes for a donation of $.01+. The money goes to a Tsunami Relief Fund. God bless.

TEN RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME:
1] each 1 of my names has 9 letters
2] I can BS a paper on anything
3] I go crazy when I’m without my cellphone
4] I go shopping at least once a week
5] I cry when I lose my mom at the mall [happened yesterday. :-/]
6] I’m so NOT into chocolate
7] I quote Napoleon Dynamite too much
8] I know every word to “Forgot About Dre” (thanks to Julian)
9] I have a strange obsession with “Yellow Submarine”
10] My best friends are polar opposites

NINE PLACES I'VE VISITED:
1] Las Vegas
2] Basically all over Nevada
3] Arizona
4] Bass Lake
5] Yosemite
6] hmmmmm
7] ….
8] …
9] …

EIGHT THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1] Carve my name on the observation deck of the Eiffel Tower
2] Get married
3] Change someone’s life [for the better]
4] Own a piece of clothing worth more than a car
5] Make my name known worldwide
6] Meet Lindsay Lohan
7] Meet Cat Stevens and tell him what an inspiration he is
8] Let people know how I feel about them

SEVEN WAYS TO WIN MY HEART:
1] Be 100% Californian.
2] Argue with me. It honestly helps.
3] Be honest.
4] If I’m having a bad day, be nice.
5] If I’m having a good day, be nice.
6] Do dare to wear designer clothes.
7] Make me laugh.

SIX THINGS I BELIEVE IN:
1] Fate.
2] God.
3] Love.
4] Ghosts.
5] ~~Ghosts~~. Angels.
6] Everything happens for a reason.

FIVE THINGS I'M AFRAID OF:
1] Snakes
2] Being alone
3] Death
4] Letting go
5] Falling in love

FOUR OF MY FAVORITE ITEMS:
1] My cellphone
2] My cat
3] My bathtub
4] My car

THREE THINGS I TOUCH EVERYDAY:
1] Keyboard
2] Cellphone
3] My hair

TWO THINGS I AM TRYING NOT TO DO RIGHT NOW
1] Letting little things bother me
2] Go over my cellphone minutes

PEOPLE I WANT TO SEE RIGHT NOW:
1] Todd, Julian, Bo, Chelsea, Kenzie…

64 years is 33,661,440 minutes and 1 minute is a long time... Let me demonstrate: 1,2,3,4,5,6...

2005-04-10T06:08:59Z

Due to the loss of our Pope, school was cancelled yesterday. I must say that although the occasion was far from something to be celebrated, I had a great day. Anyways, I think Pope John Paul II is happier now, anyways.

hahahaha.that's special.

Classicccc. Walsh being serious and me...well, dropping it like it's hot, of course!

the crew guy from The OC... hahaha, great meeting him ::Sarcasm::

hahahaha. Nice and scary, just the way we like it.

"Pacific sun, you should have warned us... It get so cold here"

Wellllllll....This weekend's been nice! Almost anything's better over the retreat... I love California, that's all I have to say

But today I've wasted away, for today is on my mind...

2005-04-04T00:28:17Z

Spring break's...OVER. It went by SO quickly.
As you all already know, Something Corporate was amazing. It was great.
On Thursday, I went to The Taste of Chaos in Long Beach. Seth took me. It was fun and we got up to the front during My Chemical Romance and The Used. I was 1 of about 20 girls. It was the biggest concert ever at LBA(14,000 people), but it was ALL guys. MCR was really good. The Used was the greatest performance I've ever seen. Of course, being in the front, I got hit in the head during The Used's set and had to get out. I've never felt that intense of heat in my life. It was insane and when I got hurt, I couldn't stand it. Overall, it was so fun.
Friday- Me, V, Renee, Jeff went out. Emma and Kevin met up with us. It was actually a really fun night. I was so proud of Renee. :)
Next weekend is the retreat...I still haven't decided if I'm going. I'm leaning more towards not going.
One upside to Spring Break being over, Summer's that much closer...THANK GOD
::you know you love me::
<3 AlexandraElizabethSpaulding.

::I won't stop til I find u and u are with me cause by now, I know u better than u know urself::

2005-03-26T18:58:52Z

Someone pinch me. Honestly, I can't even put words to how amazing the concert was. The whole show was just wonderful. Syndicate, Roundabout, and Melee were all really good. Something Corporate was purely amazing. I cried. WHAT CONCERT DO I NOT?! "Konstantine" came on and yeahhhh, you know the drill. Afterwards, I got the set of lyrics off Andrew's piano. After waiting, we (Jenna and I) walk over and see Andrew. He was so sweet. We left and went for a walk/run on the beach. my jeans were so sandy that I had to take them off...IN FRONT OF LIKE 12,000 FISHERMEN! &When I shook my jeans, all my stuff fell out and Jenna just LAUGHED at me! I made her come and get my stuff. I was not about to stand up with pants. The whole night was great. Andrew McMahon, thanks for completing my first Something Corporate show. And I think I've decided to skip design school. I think I wanna go to Pepperdine, now.

::You know you love me::

<3 Alexandra Elizabeth Spaulding.

...Unbelievable

shout out, don't drown the sound

2005-03-25T23:43:01Z

i'm leaving for the something corporate show right now.... vsdbhjuiesdhvcsdkgv
i'll update about it laterrrrr.
WOWWWWWW

Consider this your warning..

2005-03-18T05:15:59Z

Bat your eyes, girl..
Be otherworldly...
Count your blessings...
Seduce a stranger...
What’s so wrong
with being happy?
Kudos to those who
see through sickness...
Over and over and over and over.
She woke in the morning,
She knew that her life
had passed her by..
She called out a warning..
Don’t ever let life pass you by!
I suggest we learn to love ourselves
before it’s made illegal..
When will we learn?
When will we change?
Just in time to see it all come down.
Those left standing will make millions
writing books on ways it should have been..
She woke in the morning..
She knew that her life had passed her by..
She called out a warning..
Don’t ever let life pass you by..
Floating in this cosmic jacuzzi,
we are like frogs oblivious to the water starting to boil..
Now I flinch and
we all float face down..
She woke in the morning..
She knew that her life had passed her by..
She called out a warning..
Don’t ever let life pass you by! .....Think about it.... Oh, and I love you all.

You might wanna hurry... because tonight is THE night!

2005-03-05T07:41:25Z

Well... I know, I've disappeared AGAIN, but I'm back.. School's going relatively well. Life's relatively good. Alot's happened lately, but I'm really doing okay.

1st of all, March 7th marks a year since I met my best friend. Honestly, I couldn't ask for anyone better.

Julian- I love you so much. You're such a blessing to me and I wouldn't know how to survive without you. I really wish I'd waited to give you your letter on Monday, but uhhhh... early's good, too! "1 year of memories. 365 days of laughter. 8,760 hours of smiling. 25,600 minutes of knowing you. 31,536,000 seconds of loving you. For all these things and more, thank you. I love you more than you will ever know." My lil' emo, cookie-eating best friend... I love you

Meagan- WOW! Well, I just have to say thanks for being you. I love you so much. I really don't know what I'd do without you. hahaha. i loved your reaction the other day, CLASSIC! I love you! Feel better!

My 2 lil' birthday girls, Chels and Sarah! I love you guys! Chels- I love you SO much. I think I'd go insane without you.

...I think things are finally falling into place

P.S. I dyed my hair dark red last night.... Not so sure about it OH! and BTW, I managed to get myself sick tonightttt.... Greatttt

There's a good kind of pain, an insane kind of sane, when I'm around you.

2005-02-14T07:03:09Z

This one's to you... you, the one reading this...
It's really for everyone, but you, in particular:

I love you...with all my heart
There's so many times where I'd like to scream it...
So many times I've screamed...
All those times have been overcome by the simple times where I hear you and laugh...
The lies, the pain, the drama, the hurt, the shortlived antipathy...
The laughs, the hugs, the songs, the dances, the stories, the memories...
Which will you let be more important?

Valentine's Day is a day to celebrate the people you love... Now, I wanna present you with a challenge:

Make everyday a Valentine's Day.

Well, with that said, tell me who YOU love.

::You know you love me::

<3AlexandraElizabethSpaulding&Lindsay Lohan. (BTW, she's my valentineee. :])

::Just a small town girl, Living in a lonely world... Took the midnight train going anywhere::

2005-02-01T04:24:03Z

comment & i'll tell you:

1. Which song reminds me of you
2. Which celebrity/public/fictional person you remind me of, either personality-wise or looks-wise.
3. One word that i associate with you when I think of you
4. Which color(s) i associate with you.

This is the CUTEST baby in the entire world.... No one can argue... She's the best

Oh yeahhhh and in case I don't update before Valentine's Day, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! <3

{notice what Kenzie's wearing.. lol}

::You know you love me::

<3 Alexandra Elizabeth Spaulding.

Vous savez que vous m'aimez..!

2004-01-09T06:06:58Z

comment to be added. <3 ::*muah*::

**you know you love me**

<3 Alexandra Elizabeth Spaulding.

These boots are made for walking and that's just what they'll do.. <3333

2003-08-18T00:57:48Z

this is alexXx's el jay.. I REGRET TO INFORM YOU THAT THIS LIVEJOURNAL IS NOW FRIENDS ONLY. THANK YOU. yes, so comment your lil heart away and maybe i'll add you.. <333 okay, well i love you all.. <33333333 ::*muah*::
**you know you love me**
<3 alexXx